…so high school…

*blush* he is so cutie today. his eyes are sparkling. his smile is tension relieving. *blush*

yeah.. i’m so like a high school teen. there’s the blushing and the kilig factor whenever your crush passes by or talk to you.. *sigh* *still blushing*

…cravings…

this past few days, i am having this weird urge to buy things that are not in my “priority” list.. things that are not even written on any of my scribble papers…

anyways, here is the list of the things that im urging to buy..

1. IPhone 3G - probably the main reason for this is for me to have a mobile phone that i can use here in JP. A phone that i can also use for calling my family back home ’cause i could not activate the call features of my Pinas phone.
2. DSLR - i am eyeing for a Nikon D80 DSLR. while i’m browsing the sites for D80, i couldn’t help but imagine the possible theme/subject for my photos and those thoughts made me feel so excited.
3. PS3 or Wii - i just love to play. I want Wii because of Mario Bros. and PS3 because of other exciting games such as singstar, tekken etc.
4. 37″ Flat Screen - it is best to play your favorite PS3 or Wii game in a big screen. the excitement.. the fun… the rush… oh men!!

…

why are there people who love to hurt themselves badly?

is it because they just wanted to test themselves? if they can go beyond their “limitations” and how long can they endure the pain.

is it because they are afraid of the thought that once they’d let go, there might be no other chance of getting it back when they feel like having it again?

is it because they are still hoping that “the day” will still come?

 is it because they wanted to prove that they’re right, that they made the correct decision?

or simply because they’re used to it. it has become a big or “essential” part of their lives and almost everything seems to be incomplete once gone.

b-O-r-e-D-O-m

i am bored with my life <but im not in the midst of wanting to take my life away, that would be so ouchy, couldnt do it>. its just everything seems to be a routine. i will do this, then after a while i will be doing this and this after. so flat, right?

i am craving for something new. something that can/will bring back the “life”.

i am tired of being bored. tired of being “lifeless”. tired of being stucked in this routinary life.

pathetic me

i keep on getting affected on the stuffs that i shouldn’t be…

i could not think of any way on how to avoid such.

can someone help me?

damn me!