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I am supposed to organize my photos taken in Japan. I thought I will not feel sad or anything but then, I am wrong. So, I just decided not to continue. I still need more time. Hopefully by next month I will be able to organize my photos and print out some of them.

T-W-O

2 more days left and I am leaving Japan for good. 

Everyone is asking me on my thoughts and feelings about it. And I think they are all expecting my answer to be like “ohhh, I am happy that I am finally going back to Phils”. But, those answers wont just come out of my mouth. I could not force myself to utter them since I could not fully convince myself that I am indeed happy. I guess, anybody who is leaving will have the same issues.

I am becoming emotional and sentimental again. These emotions rarely surface, but when they do, they are overwhelming. I had embraced the so called independent life here. I had invested enough family-like emotions to everyone that surrounds me. I had made myself too comfortable and used to everyone’s presence. Now, I feel like leaving my “family”.

I have been trying to mask those emotions in these past few days by not entertaining the thoughts that I am leaving, thinking that it might change the way I feel. But I am not that successful. Masking my emotions doesn’t make things easier, it just gave me some time to not feel indifferent. To make me feel and do my usual routine, which is I am not sure if it is good or bad.

I will definitely miss this life that I have lived in the past 2 years. I will definitley miss the people behind the happy and sad experiences here. If only we could do something with “change”.

miyerkules

today is my last wednesday here in the office as well as here in Japan.

and… 

oh shit! my eyes are welling up with tears. 

the "FOUR"

Since I have nothing to do here in the office or should I say I am procrastinating again, I will list down the stuffs that I will miss here in Nihon instead. Allow me to start with “Four Seasons” …

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Who wouldn’t  miss this?

From childhood I had just befriended with “wet” and “dry” and not until I came here that I get to know “winter” , “spring” , “summer” and “autumn”. And it was really awesome to be able to meet them.

“Summer” is not that new to me at all, she frequently visits my home country every now and then. I get used to her quite easily. When she throws tantrums and gets all red with anger, she tends to be very handful and you can never help the amount of perspiration that it will cost you. Better be prepared with something that would make her calm down.

“Autumn” is melancholic and full of emotions. She tends to stay unnoticed but her vivid color makes you notice her even more. She gives out a calm and meditating mood to almost everyone in the room and when she’s about to go, traces of colorful leaves were left. By the way, she is also popularly known as “fall”.

“Winter” is chilly and yet comforting. She always makes the dull room lively with her snowy antics and cold breeze. But you have to be prepared ’cause she usually has the tendency to give out the coldest atmosphere that you may need help to make you feel warm again.

“Spring” is vibrant and full or energy. She usually enters the room with optimism and bright aura. She loves wearing pastel-colored-flowery outfits. People that she’s with will never leave the room without a smile or laughter. But sometimes, she’s fickle and moody.

Sigh, I will definitely miss the fun with them.However, as much as I will miss the “Four”, I have missed a lot from the “Two”. I guess its time to catch up with the “Two”.

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to be continued…

trese

13 days to go. 

I had already booked my flight on july 1st and boxes full of my stuffs were already closed and will be picked up tonight.

And my room is slowly becoming a stranger to me.

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