the "FOUR"

Since I have nothing to do here in the office or should I say I am procrastinating again, I will list down the stuffs that I will miss here in Nihon instead. Allow me to start with “Four Seasons” …

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Who wouldn’t  miss this?

From childhood I had just befriended with “wet” and “dry” and not until I came here that I get to know “winter” , “spring” , “summer” and “autumn”. And it was really awesome to be able to meet them.

“Summer” is not that new to me at all, she frequently visits my home country every now and then. I get used to her quite easily. When she throws tantrums and gets all red with anger, she tends to be very handful and you can never help the amount of perspiration that it will cost you. Better be prepared with something that would make her calm down.

“Autumn” is melancholic and full of emotions. She tends to stay unnoticed but her vivid color makes you notice her even more. She gives out a calm and meditating mood to almost everyone in the room and when she’s about to go, traces of colorful leaves were left. By the way, she is also popularly known as “fall”.

“Winter” is chilly and yet comforting. She always makes the dull room lively with her snowy antics and cold breeze. But you have to be prepared ’cause she usually has the tendency to give out the coldest atmosphere that you may need help to make you feel warm again.

“Spring” is vibrant and full or energy. She usually enters the room with optimism and bright aura. She loves wearing pastel-colored-flowery outfits. People that she’s with will never leave the room without a smile or laughter. But sometimes, she’s fickle and moody.

Sigh, I will definitely miss the fun with them.However, as much as I will miss the “Four”, I have missed a lot from the “Two”. I guess its time to catch up with the “Two”.

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to be continued…

trese

13 days to go. 

I had already booked my flight on july 1st and boxes full of my stuffs were already closed and will be picked up tonight.

And my room is slowly becoming a stranger to me.

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and the countdown begins…

SHIT!!!  

few days na lang, 14 days to be exact, uuwi na ako sa beloved pinas.

mixed emo uli. 

…baliw…

“sinong dakila? sino ang tunay na baliw”

saktong-sakto ang kanta. nababaliw na ata ako. =( 

ito na naman ako sa mga weirdong pag-iisip. natatakot na naman ako sa mga bagay na wala naman akong kontrol.

akala ko OK na ako. nakarecover na ako sa mga pag-iisip na hindi ko dapat iniisip, ngunit ito na naman. sadyang nagpaparamdam muli.

sobrang hina ko ba talaga? wala na akong tiwala sa sarili ako, masyado na akong nagpapadala sa emosyon at pagtakot. 

naiirita ako sa sarili ko kung bakit ako nagkakaganito.gusto ko na naman umuwi. 

dapat kaya ko na ito. matatag na ako. db?

…scratching off the dramas…

enough of the dramas. i am sick and tired on dealing with all my self-inflicted dramas in life. i had enough of panics and loneliness. those things will only do harm to me. 

i need to get rid off all the bad energies that i have been nursing. thoughts are really powerful. 

i need to stay positive in all aspects of life. everyone has his own share of ups and downs. how i will handle my share of downs is all up to me. positivity is the key.

i need to believe in myself. confidence in oneself could help ease all the bad energies. i need to keep in mind that i am strong and could withstand anything that will come my way! be brave girl!

and most importantly, HE is always there for me. i know that i am not a good christian. i seldom go to church, though i still do pray everyday. but then, it isnt enough. i need to bear in mind that He does not give temptations that we could not surpass and HE is always here to guide us and help us carry our own crosses. ^_^